chubby chick

RD mode

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 03:17:48 GMT

I want to go out... (i swear!) and I can't!!! hay...

updates....

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 13:36:31 GMT

It's been a while since I last updated by blog... I guess I'd better start enumerating all the things that happened recently...

I am still with the same company... My job description is still the same.
I am already in good terms with my HS peeps... we're good now...
I met up with one of my college friends recently and we visited our Alma Mater. Memories... memories... memories...
I am all bummed out.
I looking at this boy and how I wish he was MINE. LOL
I have a car already... Her name is Champagne... heehee
Steady lang... steady lang...
I met up with my sister last sunday it was fun.
I am still frosting up the place...
I still love shoes, bags and clothes.
Make up addict
leave-happy
i hate her and her floss. (yes! dental floss)
that's about it...

Oh yes! that's about it... Oh Lord, I miss my old self... However, I know that change is inevitable. I have to be ready for anything that will come my way. I am proud that I was able to see the good side of things... Oh well, 3 more hours before I leave for work... Here we go again...

Cheers!

an open letter to my friends...

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 06:49:23 GMT

Hi peeps,

Looking back on all the things that we've been through, I thank you for being there. All the triumphs and failures that we've shared you remained my rock, I'll forever be thankful. All these years I've never imagined that we'll grow apart, although I realized that in one way or another things will change and we all have to move on. I thanked the One above for giving me friends who are not afraid to say what they want to say and feel what what they want to feel.

I know I was never perfect, I've hurt you in one way or another but it was an honest mistake. A mistake I am not too proud of. I may never be forgiven but I just want to take this opportunity to apologize again. You have to understand that as years pass by, there are responsibilities and tasks that I have to accomplish. I may not be as visible as I used to be but that doesn't mean that I've forgotten everyone. I just have to set my priorities. My future is important to me and if that means being "dead" for a few months, then I shall take that option. I know you guys are used to hearing and seeing me, times change and so are people. It may not be the best option but being a juggler is something I can't do.

I hope someday you'll understand.
I hope that someday you'll be back...
I may not be around that much but you know where I am and what I am doing.

I am writing this letter just to air my side.

race against time

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 12:07:29 GMT

I am deeply challenged... Challenged of everything that is happening around... Before I used to think that leaving is the easy way out. I used to believe that what I can do is to let go of the dream...

After a long time of contemplating and destressing, I am still here. Oh yes. What made me stay? People. Tasks (sad, but true). Daily comics. Emails that drove me crazy. Call me crazy but there are just some habits that are too hard to break, work can be considered as a bad habit. A bad habit indeed...

I suck at judgment.
I miss him... Shocks! here I go again...

I AM GOING BANANAS!!!

HSM

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 08:57:08 GMT

highschool musical? possible...
high sa money... possible..

High school MOMENT... yowza!!!
i love it...

don't get it?
it's better that way...

shocked.

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 14:46:06 GMT

I am shocked.|
Shocked of the fact that people can actually say things that I hope they don't mean at all... I thought that they will understand. I thought they now hoe much I have to sacrifice to make sure that my future will be stable. But then again, I was wrong. Maybe I lack explaination that is why. Maybe I was too tired to even send everyone a text message. Yea. Maybe I just too tired...

Is it bad to be tired?
Enough already... I am just to tired to even think about it.

i am trying to understand the real Secret

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 09:49:38 GMT

Your life is your responsibility.

All the things that are happening in your life, you attract. Sounds familiar? If you know The Secret then it is familiar. :-) I use to believe that our life is dictated by fate. It is fate that brings the best and worst day/s of our lives. I remember watching Oprah and there was this episode wherein they were talking about "The Secret".

What is The Secret?
It is the Law of Attraction.
If you attract positive thoughts, you get positive things...

Now I know why... hmmmm
(ting!) Its' time to think positive thoughts... yes! It's time...

100 questions...

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 10:59:26 GMT

001. Real name: Mia Anne R. Bodestyne

002. Nickname: mia.. mami.. miyaya.. mianne.. anne (eeew!).. iya... tamiya

003. Married: no.

004. Zodiac sign: LIBRA.. :)

005. Male or female: female

006. Age: 22

007. Highschool: DLA-LP

008. College: DLSU-D

009. Residence: LPC

010. Hair color: brown

011. Long or short hair: kinda long

012. Smoke: frosting...

013. Drink: water..iced tea..frappe..

014. Available: yes.

015. Are you a health freak: not really.

016. Height: 5'4"

017. Do you have a crush?: yes.

018. Do you like yourself: i LOVE myself.

019. Piercings: one in each ear.

020. Tattoos: none..

021. Righty or lefty: righty

022. First surgery: can't remember.

023: First piercing: when i was five..

024. First best friend/s: can't remember..

025. First award: best in SOCIAL SCIENCE.. heehee

027. First pet: kitchie the dog.

028. First vacation: baguio.

029. First concert: can't remember

030. First crush: Nathaniel... heehee

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating: nothing.

050. Drinking: none.

052. Im about to: post this survey.. heehee

053. Listening to: IDK the name

054. Food: none

055. Drinks: none.. (kulet much!)

056. Colors: white.

057. Numbers: 16

YOUR FUTURE :

058. Want kids: opkors

059. Want to get married: hell yes!

060. Careers in mind: editor-in-chief in Summit media.. hehehe

WHICH IS BETTER? :

068. Lips or eyes: eyes!

069. Hugs or kisses: kisses.. hmmm

070. Shorter or taller: taller.

072. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous!

073 . Nice stomach or nice arms: nice ARMS..

074 . Sensitive or loud: loud.

075 . Hook-up or relationship: relationship.

HAVE YOU EVER :

078. Kissed a stranger: no

079. Drank bubbles: LOL

080. Lost glasses/contacts: yes

081. Ran away from home: nope.

082. Liked someone younger: yes.. heehee way younger..

083. Older: always! ;-)

084. Broken someones heart: nope. they broke MY heart.

085. Been arrested: no

086. Turned someone down: nope.

087. Cried when someone died: yes.

088. Liked a friend: yes!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. In yourself: YES.

090. Miracles: yes.

091. Love at first sight: OO.. haha

092. Heaven: yes.

093. Santa claus: nope..

094. Sex on the first date: nope.

095. The more you hate, the more you love: hahahaha hell NO!

096. Angels: yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?: YES!

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: NBSB.. sorry..

099. Do you believe in God?: YES!!!

100. I miss you.... waaaa ( i made this up! ) LOL

hanging on the edge.

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 06:54:55 GMT

I am hanging by a thread... I really am... This is not right, right?

My patience is running dry... I guess after months of being in the GY really brings out the worst in people. (seriously.) i don't feel as happy as I used to be... This should not be happening... :-I Please... Please... make it stop... make my "sadness" stop... (screaming inside)...

I still find the heart to continue what do albeit I am struggling. Because there are people who in one way or another make everything worthwhile. I want to be normal again. I want to feel the same "feeling" again... But then again, I feel tired. I feel demotivated... I feel..... DOWN. I am thankful for all the things i've received. I am thankful for all the people I've met.. Friendships that were created and nurtured.

(newsflash!)

I thought just came to mind... Last Saturday... (Now, I am happy again..) LOL

What made me change gears? ONE WORD: HORMONES!!!

stop and think..

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 07:24:33 GMT

I realized something today... that there are people who can create damage without them even knowing it... How? By just saying/doing something... yes! just like that... I guess they don't know that they can create such huge chaos. Insensitive? Possible.

I am wondering will they ever learn? Will they just dictate anything and everything? Learn from your mistakes... learn from what your "friends" are telling you... learn from the pieces of advice that were showered to you... You'll see...

Because when you said that you were my bestfriend, you actually weren't...