I am shocked.|
Shocked of the fact that people can actually say things that I hope they don't mean at all... I thought that they will understand. I thought they now hoe much I have to sacrifice to make sure that my future will be stable. But then again, I was wrong. Maybe I lack explaination that is why. Maybe I was too tired to even send everyone a text message. Yea. Maybe I just too tired...

Is it bad to be tired?
Enough already... I am just to tired to even think about it.

Your life is your responsibility.

All the things that are happening in your life, you attract. Sounds familiar? If you know The Secret then it is familiar. :-) I use to believe that our life is dictated by fate. It is fate that brings the best and worst day/s of our lives. I remember watching Oprah and there was this episode wherein they were talking about "The Secret".

What is The Secret?
It is the Law of Attraction.
If you attract positive thoughts, you get positive things...

Now I know why... hmmmm
(ting!) Its' time to think positive thoughts... yes! It's time...    

I am hanging by a thread... I really am... This is not right, right?

My patience is running dry... I guess after months of being in the GY really brings out the worst in people. (seriously.) i don't feel as happy as I used to be... This should not be happening... :-I Please... Please... make it stop... make my "sadness" stop... (screaming inside)...

I still find the heart to continue what do albeit I am struggling. Because there are people who in one way or another make everything worthwhile. I want to be normal again. I want to feel the same "feeling" again... But then again, I feel tired. I feel demotivated... I feel..... DOWN. I am thankful for all the things i've received. I am thankful for all the people I've met.. Friendships that were created and nurtured.

(newsflash!)

I thought just came to mind... Last Saturday... (Now, I am happy again..) LOL

What made me change gears? ONE WORD: HORMONES!!!

I realized something today... that there are people who can create damage without them even knowing it... How? By just saying/doing something... yes! just like that... I guess they don't know that they can create such huge chaos. Insensitive? Possible.

I am wondering will they ever learn? Will they just dictate anything and everything? Learn from your mistakes... learn from what your "friends" are telling you... learn from the pieces of advice that were showered to you... You'll see...

Because when you said that you were my bestfriend, you actually weren't...

In the next 12 hours I am about to bid farewell to one of the most amazing year of my life... A year that reminded me how truly blessed I am and how incredibly amazing my life is...  I experienced the highest of high and the lowest of lows. After all the insecurities and self doubts I am still here... (yey!)

JANUARY... All-bummed-out.. These were the times when nothing works, all my efforts where useless. All I have to do is wait.. wait... and wait...

FEBRUARY... The chance of being part of one of the biggest TV companies in the Philippines knocked at my door.. Excited? Of course. Hesitant? Yes. It was a super fast process...

MARCH... Next thing I know, I was already up for the examination, then interview and then ORIENTATION... Went to Bulacan to sort things out, I was having doubts. I realized i need to breath... And breath I did. Stayed in Bulacan for 2 weeks, enjoyed being with relatives, it made me think of my options. When I got back to Manila, I said NO. No to the life that I dreamed of. No to the life that I thought i will have once I leave college... I said No...

APRIL... Again, i was a bum... Looking back to the offer I declined, I told myself I was still lucky. why? Because out of thousands of people who applied for the post I was chosen. They saw the potential that I possess. With that in mind, I set off to meet the world again.. Fight again and be confident again. I saw an ad in Phil Star saying that one of the biggest BPO company in the country is looking for an ACE coach in their Bacoor site. The following week, i went to their site and applied for the post.

MAY... On the 12th day of May i became part of a team of different people with different personalities. I met people who are in their way unique. It was a fun bunch. how i wish it will last... At the back of my mind I was thinking, will I last?

JUNE..JULY..AUGUST..SEPTEMBER... Chaos ruled the land. Misunderstandings were inevitable and I was stuck in the middle of it. There were some who are after sympathy and their are some who are after loyalty.. I was there... i saw it all. I was given the biggest responsibility a neophyte can ever handle.. I am still holding on... Holding on...

OCTOBER... My 22nd birthday!!! i received a lot of emails, txt messages, friendster and multiply messages, gifts... I realized whoa! I was important... People remembered... The pain of losing friends was in a way lessen.

NOVEMBER... I met someone who made my heart melt.. Someone who has been around since August... However he's taken... and I mean TAKEN... I have to move on.. its not right... it was never right... MILESTONE: It's my 6 month!!! i freakin' made it.

DECEMBER... Here I am. this year is about to end... Lots of memories to cherish... i met a lot of people... earned respect from collegues.. learned to be more patient and smart..  I've learned a lot and I know that 2009 will bring more memories, experiences, pain and shoes (LOL). I am looking forward in what the future brings...

This year has been truly rewarding for me... I made a bold move and I think I made the right choice. i may not be lucky in the love department this year but I just got started... meaning I'll meet him soon... (winks) I told myself last year that I will make 2008 a remarkable experience I think that is what i just did. I know i will learn more this year.. I can feel it...

You? How did you enjoy 2008?? :-)

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!!! :-)

Spread the love....

a dream that i am looking forward in experiencing..

This  year is about to end and I am having mixed emotions... I am looking forward to next year's adventures, yet scared that it might not be as exciting as i thought it would be... I  guess the pessimist in me is trying to win over my crazy thoughts... LOL 

Oh well.. Come what may...

HELL, I am looking forward for an "Oh-some" 2009...

what's up with me? hmmm.. i guess i can just enumerate them... LOL

• I've been with teletech for 7 months.. (who've thought I'd last?)
• One of my closest and dearest friend is in Cebu.
• One of the biggest challenges in my work life is doing fine... (FINALLY!)
• I am looking forward in celebrating the Holidays in Bulacan.
• My HS friends are cooking up an enormous XMAS celebration.
• Journzeroseven will have an Acoustic night soon... i can't go!!!
• Our company's Holidays Party was a blast! I LOVE IT... it was one of those nights that I won't forget... The party was awesome and the people were HOT... heehee
• I am happier NOW...
• My office peers are really nice and I am always looking forward in seeing them... heehee (oh yes! i am happy..)
• I met someone... However that someone is already taken... and i mean TAKEN...
• Another someone came... I have doubts though coz I think he's gay... haha my arti moms (artificial moms) caught him looking (c0rrection) STARING and i think its funny because i think he's up to something... I want to know him more... LOL

That's all folks... heehee
can't wait for my year end blog!!!