It's been a while since I last visited this site... I miss all the things i used to do every time i am blogging... I always had my thoughts posted in this blog. A lot of things happened... and i mean A LOT... 

i realized a dream... it was fun and i can't wait to do it over and over again.. i met people who made me think of what really matters. misunderstandings happened and it help me understand that not all things can be picture perfect. I made mistakes that made me walk on egg shells. I hated, loved (and still loving), watched, danced, sang, wrote, laughed (and still laughing)... 

i saw someone whom i've been dying to see in years. I saw this person and the realization of a dream came back. I thought he's gone forever. I don't know what to do... maybe this time i won't overanalyze things the way I used to. let's see what will happen.

Am i happy? I am not really sure but i can say that i am contented with what i have.

It's funny how comfortable you can be with someone you barely even know. I can still remember how happy I am when I met my first friend.It was as if we knew each other really well. I met a new friend today.  I find it amusing because I never thought meeting a friend can be this exciting. heehee

A friend indeed.  I Think. lol

I am fed up. I am tired of my daily routine, I just want to get away from it all. ESCAPE! Live like I don't have to answer to other people. I am tired... TIRED OF IT ALL... I am grateful for all the blessings that I've received don't get me wrong. It's just a matter of how people are handling the situation that we are in. I remember talking to one of my dearest friends about my dilemma and she felt the same way. She understands where I am coming from and she is willing to help me get through it.

I NEED A DISTRACTION. I need to pursue what I really want to pursue. *sigh* I am tired already.... I REALLY AM.

I find it funny knowing that love is unpredictable. I can see my friends starting to bloom and I know that they are extremely happy.

In the office, me together with three friends are all NBSBs (No Boyfriend Since Birth). It cracks me up everytime they tease us for being who we are. I know we sound lame for not having anyone in our lives but we choose to be this way and we think that 'single-blessedness' is indeed a blessing. Maybe one of the reasons why we are like this its because we know what we want (or maybe we don't) LOL. But what matters is the fact that we are enjoying what we have.

We are now at that stage wherein we are welcome to whatever happens. If it happens, it happens. We are lucky because we have our families, we are lucky because we have friends and most of all we are lucky because we have each other. I know it sounds kinda cheesy but come to think of it, at the end of the day that is all that matters. 

I remember when I was still in College, I keep on wondering when will that day come. The day wherein I'll realize that I love someone and that someone loves me back. I can still remember the days wherein repapips and i are stuck in batibot, thinking of what the future will bring. Days, weeks, months, years passed and I am still here. Still the same person that I was in Batibot however, with a twist. I am no longer thinking of that someone. I am thinking of my future. I know someday that awesome day will come until then I'll enjoy what I have. It took me two effing years just to accept that. Now that I did, it's time to parteeeee...

I guess you are wondering why this post is entitled expressway. One of my NBSB friends is already "exclusively dating" someone and she is extremely happy. She's already at the "toll gate" getting ready to zoom to "SLEX". I am third in line, I am getting there... My NBSB friends and I are getting there... We'll have our time... When that comes, I'll create a post and place a photo too.  

Lately, i feel a little different. I don't feel like doing what I am supposed to do.

Demotivated? maybe.
Indifferent? I don't think so.
Sad? Yes.
I am no longer productive? yes.

I am not at a 100% anymore. I have a feeling I already lost it. I have to remember one word and one word alone... RECESSION. oh yes! that is the only thing that motivates me right now. Can I just die right now so I won't feel this kind of feeling... It sucks you know... grrr..

What will be my next step?
ahm... i really don't know... LOL

I want to go out... (i swear!) and I can't!!! hay...

It's been a while since I last updated by blog...  I guess I'd better start enumerating all the things that happened recently...

• I am still with the same company... My job description is still the same.
• I am already in good terms with my HS peeps... we're good now...
• I met up with one of my college friends recently and we visited our Alma Mater. Memories... memories... memories...
• I am all bummed out.
• I looking at this boy and how I wish he was MINE. LOL
• I have a car already... Her name is Champagne... heehee
• Steady lang... steady lang...
• I met up with my sister last sunday it was fun.
• I am still frosting up the place...
• I still love shoes, bags and clothes.
• Make up addict
• leave-happy
• i hate her and her floss. (yes! dental floss)
• that's about it...

Oh yes! that's about it... Oh Lord, I miss my old self... However, I know that change is inevitable. I have to be ready for anything that will come my way. I am proud that I was able to see the good side of things... Oh well, 3 more hours before I leave for work... Here we go again...

Cheers!

Hi peeps,

Looking back on all the things that we've been through, I thank you for being there. All the triumphs and failures that we've shared you remained my rock, I'll forever be thankful. All these years I've never imagined that we'll grow apart, although I realized that in one way or another things will change and we all have to move on. I thanked the One above for giving me friends who are not afraid to say what they want to say and feel what what they want to feel.

I know I was never perfect, I've hurt you in one way or another but it was an honest mistake. A mistake I am not too proud of. I may never be forgiven but I just want to take this opportunity to apologize again. You have to understand that as years pass by, there are responsibilities and tasks that I have to accomplish. I may not be as visible as I used to be but that doesn't mean that I've forgotten everyone. I just have to set my priorities. My future is important to me and if that means being "dead" for a few months, then I shall take that option. I know you guys are used to hearing and seeing me, times change and so are people. It may not be the best option but being a juggler is something I can't do.

I hope someday you'll understand.
I hope that someday you'll be back...
I may not be around that much but you know where I am and what I am doing.

I am writing this letter just to air my side.

I am deeply challenged... Challenged of everything that is happening around... Before I used to think that leaving is the easy way out. I used to believe that what I can do is to let go of the dream...

After a long time of contemplating and destressing, I am still here. Oh yes. What made me stay? People. Tasks (sad, but true). Daily comics. Emails that drove me crazy. Call me crazy but there are just some habits that are too hard to break, work can be considered as a bad habit. A bad habit indeed... 

I suck at judgment.
I miss him... Shocks! here I go again...

I AM GOING BANANAS!!!   

highschool musical? possible...
high sa money... possible..

High school MOMENT... yowza!!!
i love it...

don't get it?
it's better that way...